Sorry for the wall of text. If it bothers you, let me know and I’ll put it under a read more.
As some of you may or may not be aware, the mun here has been having a few personal issues this year. Nothing too serious, but I’ve had various long and heated family arguments stressing me out at various times, and I’ve been suffering with a minor to moderate depression which has taken me several months to recover from, and in the process I’ve fucked up a few things in real life which I’m now trying to fix - namely my education, my (tiny but just about existant) social life outside of the internet, my health and general wellbeing.
The good news is, I’m doing okay now, family arguments seemed to have stopped (at least, the ones that had made me so distressed I couldn’t concentrate on anything - my families still moaning at me to get out of the house more which is quite stressful, and I’m trying my best to ignore them), I’ve got a part-time job as a film extra, and I’ve been making a valiant effort to get out of the house under my own steam and get things back on track.
Which brings me to the point in this post.
Last year I started on an Art Foundation course, but due to severe stress and my subsequent depression I was unable to complete it.
I’ve now been offered the chance to redo the course and get my Art Foundation qualification. And I really don’t want to mess things up this time. With the rising fees, every year I mess up is going to be more and more expensive for me.
So starting from today, I will be putting all of my rp blogs on hiatus. This has been a tough decision for me, because roleplay has in some ways been a great help to me and even at my lowest has given me something to look forward to everyday. It has kept me writing, it has sometimes put me out of my comfort zone, and as an aspiring writer it has been an invaluable experience.
And I know there are lots of you whom I was roleplaying with, or planning to roleplay with. And I’m sorry for letting you down.
However roleplaying has also, if I admit it to myself, been acting as a distraction and taking up valuable time where I should be doing other things. I have so many blogs, that I can’t actually humanly keep up with them all, and some of you may even be reading this from a roleplay blog that I haven’t visited in a while, because I have so many blogs I can only keep no more than 3 active at a time.
So my plan is this: rp blogs that have been inactive recently will be officially put on hiatus (although should I feel the need to, I may post something on a very rare occasion). The roleplay blogs which are active currently (namely askromana2, doriangrayimmortalbeloved, and notahappychildhood) - will be put on a semi-hiatus where I will only come online to post a few small things (a roleplay thread occasionally if I feel able to) and then log out again.
However if I feel that the blogs on semi-hiatus are also too distracting, then I may be forced to leave Tumblr altogether. At least temporarily. And I may leave without warning.
No doubt I won’t be gone forever. Don’t worry. I’m not deleting any of my blogs, or anything like that - and if I ever find myself a day when I have absolutely nothing to do, I will probably spend that day on tumblr.
But my Art foundation course is very intensive, there is A LOT of work you have to pile in, and after that if I take Art at degree level, that will be 3 more years of intensive work (at least). So I really can’t afford any distractions. If you message me asking to RP, or reminding me of a thread, I’m afraid the chances are you won’t get a reply because I’ll be too busy. As it is, I am aware there are many messages piling up in my inboxes that I haven’t responded to - and for that I’m truly sorry.
I have loved being on Tumblr so much and I’ve spoken with, rped with, and followed so many wonderful people on here, and I have such wonderful followers. All of you.
I’m so sorry I have to do this, but I have to make changes on how I spend my time, or else I’ll never sort my life out.
- This is not the end. Occasionally you might still see me on your dash, and when you do, I hope you’ll think of me fondly.
However from now on, I can’t commit to Tumblr as I have done in the past. Messages may go unanswered. Roleplays may be dropped without warning. occasionally you might see me reply to one roleplay and wonder why I’ve not replied to yours in a hundred years. And maybe one day, I’ll stop posting altogether, for days, or maybe weeks, maybe months, maybe even years, and you’ll wonder where I am.
Please be aware that no matter what I still love you. All of you. Even those of you I don’t follow back, I appreciate you to the bottom of my heart. And I want to thank you all for making the 2 years I’ve spent on Tumblr so wonderful.
- Love, the Mun of this blog.
what i mean when i call a character perfect is “wow look at how flawed you are, how broken and three dimensional and well written. look how much of a disaster you are and how you are constantly torn between right and wrong and you make so many mistakes along the way wow look how human you are”
so basically when i say they are perfect what i mean is thank god they aren’t
<Blood On Others Hands>
Scenes are from
‘Something Changed - A Murderous Desire’
‘Escaping The Future - Shh, Hass’
‘Something Changed - Familyman’
Last quote is from ’ETF-Shh Hass’ Braxiatel says ‘Thank you, hass’
((Getting an early night because I didn’t get enough sleep the previous night and my brain won’t function to rp anymore tonight.
Night all <3))
Irving didn’t grace her with a response. He waited passively for her to finish. She didn’t deserve the attention, not until she had reversed what she had done.
"This isn’t helping anyone," He replied eventually. "All versions of Bernice were to remain safe. You have been breaking your promises."
"A straight answer would be appreciated," he responded with a slight smile, the irony not lost on him. "I am very busy these days - I don’t have time for guessing games."